Alik's POV What's with the bad luck? How much time has passed, and I still can not find a boyfriend. Here Zhenya is all right with this, although I do not approve of his lifestyle. But at least he has regular sex. And I can't sleep with a stranger. I must be old fashioned. Besides, not a single guy wanted to date me for more than a month. Then something stupid would happen, and the guys quickly disappeared. It's sad, but I'm used to it. Although, like everyone else, I dream of finding my love, and that we never part. Just like in books or movies. That would be great! Of course, dreaming is not harmful. So I thought, seeing Zhenya with his new "friend" with an envious look. I also want to! Eh, to go eat, or something ... Together with a crowd of the same hungry students, I went down to the first floor to the dining room. What do we have here? Mmm, borschik, my favorite! I love it, but I don't know how to cook. Tried to learn a few years ago, but broke half the dishes and nearly burned the kitchen down. After that, my mother forbade me to approach the stove closer than a meter, although in principle I cook well. And she herself cooks borscht, but for some reason it is not so tasty. How it smells! Such a red one and in the middle a white round of sour cream! How can you not love him! I put the plate on the tray and headed to my favorite table by the window, not taking my hungry eyes off my charms. Mom always said to watch your step. If only I hadn't missed her words! Then I wouldn't have knocked my soup right over the big guy. A head and a half taller and at the shoulders like two of me. Powerful muscles roll under a thin T-shirt. The T-shirt, by the way, is white-white, only now it was decorated with red spots and stuck beets. And I also saw that the guy had short blond hair and very angry eyes. Looks like I'm about to be beaten. “Excuse me,” I squeaked and closed my eyes in fear. My body was covered with a stream of air, and when I opened my eyes, the guy was no longer there. Only someone's paw fell on his shoulder. - Waaa! - I yelled with all my might, jumping to the side and attracting the attention of all those who had not yet looked at me. - What are you yelling about? - the round eyes of my classmate Ruslan looked at me. - Why are you sneaking up behind you? - I grumbled, putting the tray on the table and pressing my hand to my chest on the side where the heart is located. - And so all on the nerves, stress after stress. - Yeah, that's what I'm talking about. How did you manage to cross Vadim's path? - Ahh, what's wrong with him? - Oh, I have some bad premonitions. - Nothing, it's just that he has been boxing for eight years. In addition, the fifth year, two years older after all. Be careful, - he clicked me on the nose and smiled fervently. Oh, sometimes I think he likes me. But Ruslan is straight, besides, he is dating someone. Too bad, good boy. Then I saw the spilled soup and shuddered inwardly. This guy will slap me with one left, there won’t even be a wet place left. I'm like a moth to him. God forbid one more time to appear before his eyes! Damn, I didn’t ask Ruslan what faculty he was from! But nothing, if we have not crossed paths before, I hope we will not meet again. Vadim's POV Damn, it was such a wonderful day! I almost got the job, I just have to pass the interview. He dressed decently, even put his hair in order. And the devil pulled me to have a bite to eat before the meeting! I have never eaten in this dining room, but then the demon beguiled. And after all, it was necessary for this ... this blonde peanut to knock over his soup on me! The clothes are hopelessly ruined, which means that my dream of finding a part-time job was crying. "Sorry," he squeaks in a low, frightened voice. I can't fucking punch him, but I'll kill him! Afraid to restrain myself, I once again glanced at the shrinking boy and quickly left the dining room. I will never enter this damned place again! Alik's POV Needless to say, now I was looking back at every step and generally behaved like the last paranoid, afraid to meet that same Vadim. By the way, I was hiding from him, by the way, very successfully, so much time has passed, but I still haven’t been caught. Zhenya, the infection, again went on a spree, said not to be disturbed, and here I am tormented by fear and dissatisfaction. Later, at home, it suddenly dawned on me that the guy was cute. Yes, big, strong, but it's great! This one will always protect, because I'm small, weak .... oh, something didn't take me there. Found something to dream about. I'd rather go for a walk with the dog. I have a beautiful dog, a German Shepherd. And his name is generally out of place - Musik. It's not my fault, it's all my little sister. And it was like this: they gave me a dog for my birthday, and Irka let's poke a finger at her and yell "Musik!" Despite all my resistance, no one dared to argue with a five-year-old child. By the way, the character of the dog was appropriate: cheerful, cheerful and loving. All in me. On the street, the rain has recently ended, autumn, after all. I threw a light jacket over my shoulders and went for a walk with the dog. Such a good day: warm, the sun came out, even the asphalt dried up, only in some places there were large and not very puddles. And Musik and I will go to the park, stretch our paws. And then with this study there is absolutely no time, no one normally walks with a dog. It's beautiful, there are almost no people, some trees are so yellow, some are red, and most have remained green. The birds crawled out from somewhere, a bright solar disk is reflected in a small semblance of a lake. And then I saw HIM. No, this cannot be true. Avoid him at uni for so long and meet him in the park to hell?! This could only happen to me. But wait, he's not up to me now. Next to the guy (a light windbreaker, light-colored jeans, wow, what a handsome one!) There was some kind of silicone mymra with terrible makeup and glued nails. Yes, even on such stilettos that I wonder how she is even able to stand. She giggled shrillly and touched him with her paws, which were obviously superfluous to her. And this ... athlete-bodybuilder only smiled, approving her inclinations. Well, another straight man on my head, besides, with a girl, I don’t care that she’s so scary. - Let's go, Musik, we have nothing to catch here, - I whispered, turning back. Only now the dog was against my plans, he wanted to walk. He looked in the direction of the doves and briskly ran. Did I mention that I'm small and weak? Now, this is not an exaggeration. This shaggy brute is much stronger than me. So what are you up to, you pervert? Everything turned out to be much easier. The dog just wanted to play, and he considered the silicone beauty the best candidate. Only this fool, seeing that a shepherd dog was rushing at her with a joyful screech, well, I was on a leash, could not resist on my stilettos and collapsed into a large puddle, splashing Vadim's jeans. And Musik, like a decent dog, stopped next to Madame sitting in a puddle, sat down and beautifully bowed his head to one side, they say, is everything all right? Just then I flew up, muttering apologies as I went, and pulling a handkerchief out of my pocket. Vadim was in a deep trance and showed no signs of life. - Excuse me, are you hurt? I cooed over mymra, trying to pull her out of the puddle. In response, she began to squeal something about mad dogs, police and a muzzle, for some reason pointing at me. Then she somehow got out of the puddle and, slapping poor Vadim in the face, hobbled to the exit, muttering such curses that my ears drooped. “But you have to wear sneakers,” I muttered after her, and only now I realized that I was left alone with a guy who, apparently, had just lost his girlfriend. - Oh .... Vadim has already recovered from the shock and now his eyes promised me all the torments of hell. “You…” he roared, raising his fist from lack of words. I pulled my head into my shoulders. Now they will beat. - Once again you will show yourself in front of my eyes ... I didn’t have to repeat it twice. I never noticed the ability to run long distances, but now I have them. He allowed himself to catch his breath only in the courtyard of his own house. His legs gave way, his throat hurt, his side pricked, but Musik was pleased. Vadim's POV Today is the most wonderful day - today I'm going on a date with myself beautiful girl at the Faculty! Month of continuous work on seduction - and here it is mine! At first, everything went more than smoothly, and then ... I already forgot about this peanut, what did he draw in my life again ?! That's exactly what I thought, fascinated by watching how the first beauty of the linguistic faculty ridiculously wallows in a muddy puddle and swears worse than a shoemaker. Then they also hit me in the face for no reason, painfully scratching my cheek with sharp claws. The peanut muttered something displeased and turned to me. What a bright mixture of horror and doom reflected in his eyes! I even thought: am I really that scary? But this thought was quickly lost against the background of the fact that all my efforts again went down the drain! “You…” I growled, feeling my fists itch. It is forbidden. I have a principle: do not offend the little ones. - Once again you will show yourself in front of my eyes ... Small as the wind blew away. And I, rubbing my cheek and cursing fate, went to my favorite bar. Something beer wanted. Alika's POV The athlete-bodybuilder did not come across to me so much time as it was enough for me to stop worrying. Of course, I doubt that he forgave me for the silicone scum, but his anger should subside. And I have great joy: Zhenya decided that it was time to devote himself to his studies, that is, for two days he looked like a couple. After that, he decided that he fulfilled his duty to society and again scored on everything. No persuasion helped, although I earned a cake as a bribe. I was also entrusted with drawing a wall newspaper. Once in my first year, when I was small and stupid, I had the misfortune to blurt out that I could draw. Since then, I have become the only "artist" on the course. They gave me a sheet of drawing paper, brushes and paints, shoved me into an empty auditorium and said: "Draw." Well, at least they didn’t lock it up so that they didn’t escape. Here I sit, painting, biting my lip from zeal. Hands up to the elbows in paint, I think my face looks even worse. That's why your nose starts itching just when you can't touch it? Villainy rule. So, I draw, admire my creation. Eh, it's time to change the water, otherwise it's completely brown. I took two jars, just in case, so now I grabbed them and, furtively looking around, went to the toilet. Well, what can I say ... not my day today. Again, the law of universal gravitation of trouble to my ass worked, and dirty water somehow mysteriously ended up on Vadim's white shirt again. More precisely, I just turned the contents of the cans on it. The boy looked at himself in disbelief. - Will you beat me? - I asked doomedly, deciding that it was better to look fate in the face. Vadim's POV Tell me, how did I manage to fail the certification? So I'm thinking: how? But still, I succeeded. For some reason, I didn't expect anything good from that day. At first I crammed all night and, as a result, did not get enough sleep. Then I almost died in the shower, trying to cheer up, besides, the scrambled eggs burned down, and the neighbor's grandmother dug into my door mat. Well, what does she have to do with him? Seething with anger, I almost tore off the buttons while putting on a shirt. This bore demands everything to be perfect, so today I will be an exemplary student. Then I missed the bus and listened all the way to the ranting of some aunt about the lack of culture of modern youth. And mind you, I listened to her silently. And of course, everything had to result in a toddler. Unfortunately, I noticed it too late. Around the time the bloody cans of water were halfway through my new white shirt. I feel like it's getting wet. Looking at the brown stains on the clothes, I was no longer angry. - Will you beat me? - a timid voice brought me out of prostration. I looked up. In front of me stood a skinny something with a face smeared with paint, hands, even hair in places! He clutched dirty cans to his chest, at the bottom of which splashed the same brown water. He looked so unhappy that his heart ached. What did he even say? Beat? How can you beat that? - Is it your hobby to spoil people's clothes? I asked with a sigh, looking at him carefully. “N-no,” the boy squeezed out with difficulty. - I didn't do it on purpose, it comes out like that. - What is your name, miracle? - Alik. That is, Alexander, but you can just Alik, - this misunderstanding stammered. "It suits you," I chuckled. - Vadim. - Oh, very nice, - apparently, it's time to turn off, otherwise the guy began to stutter with fear. - Okay, see you. And this, - I somehow hesitated, - be more careful next time. The boy nodded quickly and began to back away. Funny boy. Direct and sweet. God forbid, when was the last time I met a guy? A year and a half ago, and we parted not too pleasantly. And for some reason I want to protect this boy. He will either kill himself or hurt someone else. Or first he will cripple someone, and then this someone will cripple him. I'll have to look after the boy. It's a pity... Alik's POV To say that I was shocked would be an understatement. I thought that my blue carcass would be found in the nearest ditch, but that's how it turned out. He is not only beautiful, but also good. And in general, after all that I did to him, well, not me, but my total bad luck, it's surprising that he didn't kill me. And in general, if we have already met so many times under such conditions, it must be fate! The last time he even reacted so kindly... - Alik, why are you in the clouds? Ruslan shook me by the shoulder. - BUT? - I'm calling you for the third time. Are you in love or what? He laughed merrily and patted me on the shoulder. "Of course, don't you already know?" I quipped, blushing a little nonetheless. - That's it, I'm home. - Where? We've got a couple more. - I know, I just found a part-time job. If I don't leave now, I won't make it. Bye. Indeed, I found a job and I really like it. Of course, unpretentious, and the salary is not too big, but the people there are cheerful and very kind to me, although I have already broken a plate. I got a job in a cafe, either as a waiter, or as an errand boy, in general, I do what they say. “Hello,” a familiar voice rang out as I ran out of the university. I slowly turn around and can't believe my eyes. Vadim is standing, all so stunning, smiling and straightening his bag. “Hello,” I greeted politely, trying to keep my voice from faltering, because everything inside was trembling. - Maybe you can call me Uncle Vadim? - the guy grimaced. - I'm not that old anymore. How are you doing? - W-good. - Am I that scary? - Not. - Then why are you stuttering? I can't say that I like him, can I? Is he a homophobe? Then I'll definitely get to know his fists. While I was thinking, the guy had already moved on to the next question. - Where are you in a hurry? - To work. Do you know the waterfront cafe? - Of course, I go there often. Now I will go more often, - he smiled and went on. Didn't understand what happened now? Was he playing with me? But he's natural, isn't he? Then one thought came to me: he came up to me, he spoke to me! He likes me? Hooray! Inspired by this thought, I quickly got home, ate a chocolate bar to celebrate and ran to work. Today everyone praised me because I was very smiling with visitors, I didn’t break anything and even got a tip and some blonde’s phone, which I immediately threw away. After that, we ran into each other several times in the corridors, and he always greeted me and asked how things were going, and if he couldn’t talk, he simply nodded and smiled. I felt like I was flying on wings. It's so cool! Only now, apart from these short conversations, there was nothing else. Gradually all my enthusiasm disappeared. And how can he not disappear if he does nothing else? I became a little distracted, even Zhenya noticed during the break between clubs. All my thoughts were occupied by this guy. And now I slowly rubbed the bar, remembering how his eyes shone when he was sitting on a bench in the corridor on the fourth floor... - Alik, take the coffee to the sixth table, - my direct boss gave me a friendly slap on the back of the head. - Stop counting crows! - I'm going, I'm going, - I grumbled, putting the snow-white cup on the tray. - Not a moment's rest. He looked out from behind the counter: two guys and a girl were sitting at a small table. The most ordinary, nothing special. Vadim is much better. Damn, am I going to compare all the guys I meet with him now?! I take a tray and go to the table. The usual job is to bring coffee. Only my total bad luck returned. At the moment when I approached the table, one of the guys decided to stand up and pushed back the chair, while pushing me. The tray tipped over and spilled hot coffee right on the guy's back. He jumped up, yelled, I dropped the tray in horror. The boss ran up, began to apologize to him, shouting that I should also apologize. "I-I'm sorry," I muttered, lowering my head. - Forgiveness?! Are you crazy at all? the guy yelled, pushing me in the chest. - I have a burn all over my back, you clumsy seal! - I... I'm very sorry... - I don't care! You ruined things for me, you bastard! How can I go outside now? - Legs, - a quiet voice came from behind me, from which the guy somehow sat down. Or do you want to be taken out? I turned around, not trusting my ears. Behind me stood Vadim and bored the unfortunate guy with an angry look, while his posture expressed absolute calmness. - But he... - Do I repeat, or did you understand everything? - I directly saw how the muscles tensed under the thin sweater. The boy nodded fearfully. - Goodbye then. And happy travels. Look, don't stumble. Vadim waited until the unfortunate man left the cafe and turned to me. You managed to get in here too. How clumsy you are... Vadim's POV Having made a decision, I immediately began to implement my idea. Found out everything I could about this guy and it surprised me. I don't understand why he only gets into trouble around me. Nothing like this had been noticed before. Nevertheless, he continued to look after him. From the outside, so that he did not see, although sometimes he spoke to him. Simply because I wanted to see an embarrassed smile and a blush on my cheeks. He looked happy, and I was a little happier myself. Then I began to notice that he became thoughtful and almost did not smile. Maybe something happened to him? I don't know why, but I felt responsible for him, like a kitten I picked up on the street. So sweet, affectionate...damn, I'm about to explode from overflowing emotions! No one has ever evoked such feelings in me, it's just ... mind-blowing! I wanted to see him so much, my nose itched. It seems that Alik said that he works in my favorite cafe. Well, great. I arrived just in time to stand up for the poor guy, who, judging by the face, was already ready to burst into tears. The insolent man immediately lost all claims, and Alik looked at me with big eyes. Distrust, amazement and a drop of admiration were read in them. You managed to get in here too. How clumsy you are... - I said, realizing that I wanted to hug him. Weird, I thought I wasn't attracted to guys anymore. But I was wrong. If I have already picked up a kitten, then I will not be able to leave it. - Let's go, - I grabbed his hand and pulled him out. - But what about ... - he squeaked, but did not resist. We left the cafe, walked along the embankment, and I sat him down on a bench. The farthest end, covered on all sides by stunted trees - the best place, to talk. - How are you? - It's good, thanks. - Alik, can I ask you? He waited for a nod and collected his thoughts. - Will you let me take care of you? - In what sense? - Don't you understand? - I looked into his eyes, as if trying to convey everything that I feel. - I understand, but... are you serious? - Confused look green eyes. - More than. He once again looked into my eyes and ... rushed with a kiss. I immediately pressed my fragile body to myself, enjoying the sweetness of his lips. - Again leaned on the sweet? I whispered, breaking away for a second. - Yes, you know - smile, and again his lips on mine. POV Author - What do you want today: fish or chicken? - asked a short fair-haired guy, looking into the face of a large brown-haired man. - Kitten, you know, I'll eat everything you cook, - he sighed wearily, apparently, the conversation began a long time ago. “Then I’ll prepare a vegetable salad for you,” the boy pouted, but suddenly his face brightened. - I'll buy myself a cake. - No sweets, - the second frowned. - You already eat so much of it that I don’t know how much more. We'd better buy you apples. And he pointed to the counter, where there were large red apples. - Then there are grapes! - Kitten, you will burst, - the guy laughed, but looking at the pouting face he continued: - Okay, apples, grapes and lollipops. Will it fit? - Vadichek, you are my best, - the blond beamed and even reached out to the older guy, but remembered that they were not alone. - I'll cook a fish for you. Stuffed as you like. “And how did I manage to get such a treasure,” said the brown-haired woman, running her finger along her partner’s cheek. “I won’t give it to anyone and I won’t let it go anywhere. - I love you too, dear. Gentle smiles intended only for each other, a full basket of products, and the guys, pushing their elbows, chuckling, go to the checkout. How many such happy moments were there for their still short-lived relationship? Don't count. And how much more will be.
At the word "taiga" everyone will have their own association and for sure anyone will imagine a forest in front of them, which has no end and edge. And I still see an endless series of hills covered with this same forest, between which rivers large and small meander. When you still see the gifts of nature that are given for nothing: mushrooms, berries, fishing! Here a desire will flare up to spit on this civilization, to rush into this silence, kneel down and say: "I'm sorry that I betrayed, I changed it all to the bustle of the city, where you don't breathe like that!"
Now it’s not about that, but about how our thinking aggregate, which we carry on our shoulders, grinding the past, sometimes gives out something that from which side to approach what we saw in a dream, only God knows and will we be able to use the information provided? - the question, of course, is very interesting.
And so, one day I see that I live in taiga places, I was going to go with a bucket for currants, and when I picked it up and came back, I turned to the river along the way, where it makes a turn at sheer cliffs and flows between boulders. A place of fabulous beauty, you can watch and listen to how the water rustles for a long time.
There was a large bush not far from the shore, I went up to it and then I noticed that three guys were standing behind it at the very edge of the water and talking about something. I stopped, they did not notice me and what they were talking about, I could not hear. Suddenly one of them, who was standing with his back to the water, threw up his hands and, as it seemed to me, jumped into the water.
What did he think of swimming in such cold water, and jumped back? - it occurred to me, but when I saw that it was being carried by the current and it did not perform any actions - red divorces were coming from it, I realized that there had been a murder and I was horrified:
If they notice me, I will swim next to the one whose current has carried far away, he has already buried himself in one of the boulders, began to turn around ... I stand without breathing and suddenly realized: I have a gun with me! I got it, cocked it, I stand, I wait. The two walked away. At that moment I came out from behind the bush and after them I say:
Guys, you forgot your friend here, - and pointed to the river. They turned, the neighbor immediately went towards me and he should have stumbled on a stone, making a movement as if he wanted to tie a shoelace, and I muttered:
Shoelaces now why do you need it? - He pulled the trigger. He buried himself in the stones, and the knife that he dropped from his hands even "jumped" over the stones. Another at that moment tried to get something out of his pocket with trembling hands, but now it was my turn to get rid of the witnesses - I put him down too.
I ran to see if the one who had sailed to the boulders was still alive. He was no longer there, he returned, dragged the corpses to the water, pushed him, then found a knife, threw it further into the river, picked up a bucket of currants and walked home.
Soon something happened that spoke of what the dream was about. My place of work was close to where I lived. I walked to it on foot along the same route, using the sidewalk that was adjacent to the road, and in one place, and this is about fifty meters, the sidewalk and the road were heavily squeezed by old buildings.
One evening, returning in the evening, I passed this place and my lace untied. When I bent down to tie it, at that moment something flashed over me, raised my head and was stunned: I was overtaken by a car with a trailer loaded with boards, one of which stepped aside and with its beveled end rushed over the sidewalk, swaying up and down. It so happened that when I bent down to tie my shoelace, the board made oscillating motion up without hitting me, and there was a concrete pillar in front, the board hit it, came back and took its place. The driver did not even notice that he was not all right with the load, which almost blew my skull.
In less than a couple of days of gratitude for the permission to live on, I walk along this site again and literally with a difference of no more than ten meters from the site where I almost went to the Almighty to tie my shoelaces, I hear something crash from behind, and into this time I was overtaken by a dump truck loaded with huge stumps. They were uprooted somewhere, and now one broke loose and, it must have happened, fell from behind without hooking me with a single root. Hit me with such a hulk on the crown of the head! Just got lucky twice in the same place!
Only now it became clear what the dream warned me about, and here the taiga, the river, the string, the knife and the murders. Though filed was exaggerated, but more or less plausible.
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God forbid, so that sleep in hand. But still, I think that these dreams or dreams are not in vain - someone warns you of danger. Maybe I'm wrong. But at first I thought that you were describing reality. The taiga itself is very interesting and so mysterious that the desire is great to visit in the thick of HER - Wow!
24Archive 12/15/2014
Dear readers, today I am finishing the Good Mood Recipes contest, which was held on my blog. Welcome to the latest entries. And all the contestants from me information: follow the news, one of these days, in the very, very near future, we will sum up the results of the competition. Be careful, stay connected. And our readers have room for thought - after all, our participants sent so many recipes for a good mood. I hope we are all positive.
Today I am publishing a contest work from Nina Vilisova. It is called “Nothing in this life happens just like that”, she participates in the nomination “Emotional recipes for yourself, your beloved, family and family hearth”. Many of my blogger friends know Nina Vilisova very well. I myself often correspond with her, communicate and never tire of being amazed at the resilience of the character of this fragile mother. Nina has her own blog healthy image life, releases electronic journal"Bereginya", let's get acquainted with her work. I pass the floor to Nina.
Nothing in this life just happens
Hello dear readers! I probably won’t say anything special and wise in my article, but once again think about why each of us has situations in our lives in which we ask ourselves the question: “why?”, “Why did this happen to me?” , we blame ourselves, others, loved ones ... Believe me, nothing happens in this life to us just like that! This is my firm conviction. All that happens is a lesson given to us that we must learn. If we do not adequately pass it, it will be repeated until we solve it correctly. And if we don’t understand something from this lesson, we can step on the same rake all our lives.
I want to tell you about my story, personal life experience. It so happened that I alone bring up four wonderful kids, one of whom has been ill from birth with such a serious disease as cerebral palsy and epilepsy. To be honest, we all had to go through a lot of good and bad things. But, such a thought never left me, it seemed to always go ahead of me, and I saw it in capital letters - I am the happiest person on Earth and the Lord loves me, and I am so ungrateful ... I grumble, lose heart, despair, swallow pills ( yes, it happened before).
But it’s true: I’m not alone, ALL my children are with me (there are families in which, during a divorce, husbands take their joint children from their wives), I would not have survived this; also with a child who has cerebral palsy, there are children with the same disease who can neither walk nor speak at all, and my child, even with some handicapped in the body - while walking, running, enjoying life also with the rest of the children.
And thirdly, with us, in fact, the father of my children can live in peace, because there, in another house somewhere, he still lives alone with his 14-year-old son, but, alas, it turns out that more than a day he cannot be under the same roof with us. He is torn off like a demon, it becomes very difficult for him. Why is that? I have asked this question many times before. Or maybe this is the work of God? After all, if he had stayed with us, our life would have been completely different, you can imagine a family where the husband drinks alcohol every day without drying out, this smell of alcohol and tobacco is constant in the house, drives his wife away, and all this in front of four young children.
I waited for 12 years because of naive love, I hoped that the time would come, and he would finally want to stay with us, he would not behave with me the way he did with his first ex-wife, everything will be different with us, because we love each other very much. Silly and funny, isn't it? But seriously, in my heart still remains that bitterness and resentment for unfulfilled hopes. But now I have every opportunity to start living my real life - a new house, a new village, and I believe that these times will be better for us than before.
I have been doing blogging on the Internet for more than 4 years, and they regularly write letters to me here, asking where I find the strength to raise and raise four children?! Well, I think the moment has come to tell about all this.
What makes me feel good
Sometimes we feel lethargic, powerless, unprepared for any activity. Perhaps there was a loss of something important, something that formed the basis of our understanding of ourselves and of life. When dreams collapse, prospects break, each of us must be aware of one thing: everything happens for our good, personal growth and well-being.
1. Smile more often. It has been said more than once that a smile is like a vitamin, a medicine for health. A smile filled with good feelings inspires people to good deeds and deeds. And what to do when instead of a smile, you want to shed a tear? You shouldn't hold back. When you feel bad at heart and want to cry, it’s better to go where your tears are not seen by others and cry. No need to suppress an emotional cry. Tears help ease the state of mind. Tears bring cleansing.
And we need to give smiles to those around us. What can a smile do to a person??? Uplifts the mood of the one who smiles, and the one to whom we smile. It fixes the striving for the good in the one who smiles, and in the one to whom he smiles. It helps to establish people's trust in each other, makes it possible to establish close spiritual relationships. Contributes to the education in people of faith, hope, love. A smiling person wins people over, makes them spiritually rich, heals their souls, possessing healing power.
A smile affects the character of people, kills anger, hostility, enmity, hatred. A smiling person is a beautiful, healthy person. A smile is a mirror of health, remember that. Look at these smiles of cute children, how happy they are, isn't it true that the soul becomes light and joyful.
2. Physical education and sports are great to cheer up. In the summer, she loved to douse herself in the morning and go for a morning jog. In the winter, I love skiing. From childhood to school years I went to the ski section three times a week, and physical education lessons were always held on the ski track.
When the weekend or vacation came, at home with their two younger brothers they always went skiing in the forest for the whole day. It was very interesting to look and observe the amazing footprints of forest dwellers. I remember seeing fox tracks and walking for kilometers past various trees and bushes. It was amazing time.
Now I try to instill in my children a love for sports, physical education, in winter - skiing and skating.
3. Delicious and healthy recipes to lift your spirits. The mood and condition of our body mainly depends on how we eat. You can increase the body's resistance to various diseases with the help of simple and proven folk remedies.
a) Be sure to make it a rule to drink a glass of boiled warm water daily on an empty stomach with the addition of freshly squeezed juice from half a lemon and a tablespoon of honey. This drink cleanses the body, gives energy and vitality for the whole day.
b) Especially in the winter and spring season, be sure to take a vitamin mixture. It has a beneficial effect on the entire body and strengthens memory. She prepares like this:
We take 200 g of dried apricots, figs, walnuts, raisins, prunes, lemon and a glass of honey. Scroll dried fruits and lemon through a meat grinder (make sure that no bones come across), add honey, place in a glass jar and keep in a cool place. This mixture can be consumed in a tablespoon in the morning and at night daily.
Eating lemon will restore digestion and disturbed microflora in the intestines, strengthen immunity, add strength and energy to the body, strengthen bones, nails and hair, and improve skin condition. A very good neurologist recommended this vitamin mixture from dried fruits to my son and me during his illness many years ago. Since then, every winter I have been preparing it for the future, and not only for a sick child, but also healthy children are happy to take it instead of sweets to maintain immunity.
c) One should not forget about oneself beautiful, too. After all, if you look at yourself in the mirror and like yourself, it already means a lot. Involuntarily, the mood rises. For these purposes, I will share with you my favorite female miracle medicine for rejuvenation.
Miracle blend of honey, garlic and flaxseed oil
This magical composition helps to cleanse the body of toxins, instills in a person good spirits, health, smoothes and refreshes the skin, burns fat, improves metabolism in the body, enhances hair growth and even restores their former color, fighting gray hair. Preparing a miraculous composition is quite simple.
For 1 kg of honey, you need to take 180 grams of flax oil, 4 small lemons and 3 heads of medium-sized garlic. A couple of lemons should be peeled, the other two are used along with the peel. Garlic and lemons are ground in a meat grinder or blender, then mixed with butter and honey. The mixture is stored in a tightly closed container in a cool, dark place. Consume shortly before meals, about half an hour, a tablespoon. A month after the start of the reception, you can take a break for a week, then start “rejuvenation” again.
4. Hanging in a state of grief and apathy is dangerous for a person who actually stops living and fully developing. Therefore, you need to find a hobby, something you like, something that would bring joy, and give yourself to this business. It is known how interesting hobby can cheer up a person, fill him with new meaning, help him to believe in himself and his strength again.
When fatigue overcame me in the summer, I had to do a lot of things in the gardens and around the house in one hand, and another time just out of a feeling of loneliness, pain and resentment towards someone, at such moments I went to my bees or just went to hug nature birch. You know how great it helps to forget past bitterness, gain strength and energy. Everything seems to clear up in my head.
5. If all the ways to put yourself in order and cheer up have been tried, but the soul remains the same, not calm and some kind of blackness, then the best way helping yourself is helping other people. Start helping those in need. These can be charity events, performances, assistance to orphanages and the disabled. Start with those who are nearby, whom you see every day, start with loved ones! Take care of your parents, your own children, let them have everything happy life. If possible, help financially. But even if this is not possible, only sincere love can work miracles and heal wounds. Give them your warmth and affection, show love with generosity and disinterestedness. The meaning of life will immediately return even after experiencing a very big loss, as soon as you start taking care of those around you. By doing so, you will help yourself cope with a huge sense of fear, anxiety and uselessness.
Nothing happens just like that - everything goes on as usual!Nothing happens just like that - everything goes on as usual!
We often feel that something is happening unfairly. But this is only a view from one life and it only seems so, because we do not take into account all aspects, nuances and opinions of the parties.
Long-term observation of one's thoughts, actions, states, the experience of carrying out regressions in past lives puts everything in its place. At the moment, it is an absolute axiom for me that everything in life is ABSOLUTELY FAIR, nothing happens just like that - everything goes on as usual!
So, the code of laws:
Law of reflection
As inside, so outside, as above, so below.
A very important law that shows that the world around you is a reflection of our own ideas about it.
Consequence 1: to change the world you need to change your ideas about it.
Corollary 2: To change views, you need to know about them.
Naturally, we do not like what does not meet our expectations. They, in turn, are shaped by beliefs about how things should be. Such discrepancies make us angry or anxious. Therefore, you can learn about limiting ideas and beliefs by observing your states.
The first desire that arises in a moment of anger or anxiety is to blame the other. But remember, pointing at him with one finger, with three we point at ourselves, which means that we ourselves created this situation!
Analyze what you don't like about other people? Write it down. Look for these qualities in yourself, you may not find them right away, then watch your behavior in all states - both when you are happy and when you are angry. Having found this quality in yourself, accept it, say: “Now I understand, I also do this, but I will try not to do it anymore”, and try ... Then people with such qualities will not come into your life anymore, because they have nothing to do will get hooked.
Annoying is always what is in ourselves. These are the hooks with which we cling to each other, it is not by chance that a glance clings, a person clings, clings.
Law #2
What you radiate is what you receive.
At every moment of time we are in the process of energy exchange with the environment, people, all living things around. Radiation and reception have a common root - a ray. Indeed, every person at any moment of his life radiates either positive, or negative, or neutral energy. This is already fixed by modern instruments and recognized by scientists.
Energy, going out into space, attracts its own kind - and returns along the beam. These laws have long been known to us from sayings: "What you sow, you will reap", as well as "Like attracts like". Indeed, by sowing one seed, we get a whole ear, by sowing negative energy around us, it is this that we will receive back, but in greater quantities.
Ecclesiastes also said: “It is time to scatter stones and time to collect stones.” The saying “Dirty does not stick to the clean” always seemed to me a riddle, but it turned out that it is absurd in the physical world, but in the energy world this is exactly what happens. At the same time, the words chance, chance do not mean something unexpected, not expected, but just the opposite, an absolute regularity. In chance, rays of the same quality merge and project them into a certain event. So we come to understand that everything in the world is ABSOLUTELY REGULAR.
Every time you encounter an unpleasant event, remember that it came to you for a reason. Try, no matter how paradoxical it sounds, to radiate more positive energy - gratitude, recognition, love.
The technique of transferring negative mental energy into positive physical energy will also help. To do this, you need to do active work and say: “I wash (wash, clean) all the negativity from my life, all the dirt from my soul.” “I smooth our relationships - they become even, smooth”, etc.
Watch your words and actions carefully, as this is your sowing for the future.
